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masyaallah lama gilossss nie tak tulis kat entry nie... maap yaaa !! :)) 

last post masa bulan june kott..hahaha..

ape tak nyer..busy je memanjang..itulah inilah sanalah sinilahh..banyak sgt kotmitmennyer kalah PM najib weyhh..tgok2 dah masuk sem 4 dah nie..hahaha

oke..now what i can summarize hidup nab since berbulan bulan nie... huhuhuhuhuhu... 

HAPPY SAD HURT SMILE CRY SMILE... lolllzzzz

oh my, how come hidup nab boleh jadi macam niee.. *emoji thinking*

hahaha.. actually takdelah trouble sgt..just for me there are lot of things yg nab learnt from my mistakes sendiri or maybe not me or maybe others or maybe me or maybeeeeee both.. LOLl.. 'ayat aku mcm penuh masalah je' HAHAHA

yaaa... actually maybe entry kali nie ade relates jugak la kot ngan post previous..huhu *scrollbalik*

dah lama nak share kat sini sbb ye la blog is one part of my life untuk share2 kann.. so no one can halang i..okeyy *angkat tgn atas bahu*

first of all what i can say is dalam hidup nie kan tak banyak benda yang kekal tau.. termasuk diri kita sendiri.. sebab Allah bagi kita pinjam semua yang kita ada sekejap je kat bumi nie... termasuklah orang yang kita sayang.. *oke nak masuk cter dah* 

orang yang kita sayang tu ada sebab musabab dia hadir dalam hidup nab..sapa DIA?? dia adalah seorang adam yang berjaya membuka hati nab untuk merasai apa tu perasaan dan fitrah :)  huhu..

dan ada sebab musabab juga kami mencari penyelesaian utk tak meneruskan apa yang diimpikan.. 

since kitorang berkenalan and berkawan, banyak benda la jugak yang nab tau and belajar from him..especially pasal guy nie..ye laa..dulu dekat sekolah mana ada rapat sgt ngan laki nie.. gitu2 jee..lagi2 bler nab mmg tekad tak nak ada pun relantionship masa kat sekolah..hahaha 

so from him laaa, nab tau skit2 and more think matured skit kott..kott laa..hehehe

serious talk nab cakap.. nab happy sgt bler nab dapat kenal dia.. he's a funny guy.. mmg suka wat lawak.. and very nice person.. semua org senang untk berkawan ngn dia.. :)dia ni kalau dah bercerita memanggg tak boleh stop..pokpekpokpek je kjer..hahaha..nasib laaa nab nie pendengar setia..*angkat bakul sendiri* and yg buat nab rase nak kawan ngan dia sbb he always comfort me when im in trouble..not only me, kawan2 dia pun.. at the first mmg nab mcm ragu2 utk kenal dia.. sbb nab terlalu taksub ngn azam sekolah dulu..lol but i try  challenge to myself utk know him more.. and yaaaaa i did it!!! huhuhu.. 

a lot of moments jugak laaa ktorg got through together..huhu..masam manis cuka pahit semua adaaaaaaa.. 

after a few months.. ktorg mcm suam suam gitu..huhu yaaa mungkin time tu nab pun ngah busy ngan assigment, presentation, kelab and bla blaaaaa.. and he also busy ngn final project, PM program itu ini.. and ktorg pun mcm tak dapat nak understanding ngan situation masing2..huhu and yes honestly, from there nab nampak banyakkkkk bende between us.. :) ada negative nya and ada positive nya... but i try to think positive and keep move on with the flow.. ye laa rancangan Allah kita tak tau kan.. :))) yes i admit, time tu nab mmg dah ade feel kt dia just idk how to show at him.. so i just keep pray and let Allah show me the best way and banyak bersabar..huhuhu :) *pengakuan yg jujur sgt ni nab*

time to time..Allah macam bagi petunjuk kot kat kitorg berdua utk do something yg lebih better utk next life..its hard for me utk deny perasaan sendiri on that time but situation kitorg masa tu mmg really tak izinkan utk nab carry on ngn feeling tu sbb i know dia pun mcm try to end up all this..serius masa tu hati ni sgtlahh tak tenteram..sekejap fikir tu sekejap fikir ni..hnya my lovely roomate je yg tau condition nab time tu...so utk elakkan rasa yg lebih sakit, i try to find the solution and just cant say anything whatever he said and decided sbb i know maybe ade jugak salah dari nab or maybe from his side too or both.. and i realize that im not good enough for him..yaa i hope also that our relantionship can long lasting but hmmmmm.. :(( then,lama lama ktorg terus silent till now..hmmm maybe dah rancangan Allah tentukan mcm tu kan.. :) tapi nab nak cakap yang i really apperciate every single things yang dia wat kt nab..take a good care when im not feeling well and try to comfort me when i hve a lot of problems and always be my good listener..*oke tba2 rasa rindu pulak..loll*  sorry if sepanjang nie nab ada buat salah silap yang nab tak perasan or something that you disappointed to me..and  THANK YOU very much.. thank you being a part of my life.. thank you for everything.. sampai bler2 pun dia tetap kawan nab..and nab doakan that he can find someone better than me and have a better life..amin..and i hope our silaturahim never end.. :)) 

*rasa sedih pulak..lap air mata :(*

yaaa after passed through all these.. nab macam ada rasa matured sikit utk buat keputusan especially utk kebahagian diri sendiri..*biasalah umur nakmasuk 20 dah ni*.... dalam hidup ni kann semua bnda kene pilih.. once you tersilap pilih, you kene laaa tangung sampai akhirnya..for example, nab pilih utk kenal dia but Allah plans everthing, so nab kene laa lalui apa yg Allah dah tetapkan tu :) and tak ada dalam hidup ni yang kita panggil nasib sebab nasib tu datang nya sendiri dari pilihan yang kita buat.. am i right??? hehehe... 

so just smile babyyyy and enjoy your LIFE !!!!!! 

byebye... 

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